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 -Giving My Goodbye

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Sep 17, 2001

It's odd, a few weeks ago, before I got my most recent job and was facing a degree of financial burden, I considered the possibility of supplementing my income and helping to pay for my return to classes by joining the Army Reserve.


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My orignial plan was to join up and become a "Psycological Operations Specialist". These are the people who do things like blast "Panama" out of loudspeakers for days on end to get dictators out of hotels, and who create and disseminate the leaflets the army drops on enemy sites, along with other propaganda.

Well, I was discussing this option with my friends, and one of them made an interesting statement:

"So, Angst, you want to join the army, create and spread rightist propaganda that I'm pretty sure would be against what you believe, all for money? ... Suck Satan's Cock!"

It was then that I decided the reserves probably wasn't for me. Now, though, I'm thinking about what going on in this nation, and I want to do something. The problem is, well, besides the obvious trouble of helping to support Laura and having two jobs, the problem is that I would quite possibly be delivering myself as a tool of those who's intentions I would deplore.

I have a feeling there are other people out there, other young men who are feeling the same way right now. Last night I read another chapter-and-a-half of 'Stiffed'. It was about the Vietnam war. About the issues of masculinety involved. How those who refused to fight (not the rare few who were actually jailed, but those who were able to avoid the draft with college or by other means) ended up feeling like cowards, while those who did fight found themselves in a directionless hell, where their superiors were more interested in personal career advancement than the development of the men under them.

At this point I really don't have anything else to say. I will just leave this essay unfinished, and perhaps return to it in time...


**TOLERANCE PATROL** (4.00 / 4) (#1)
by jsm on Mon Sep 17th, 2001 at 08:22:58 AM PST
So, Angst, you want to join the army, create and spread rightist propaganda that I'm pretty sure would be against what you believe, all for money? ... Suck Satan's Cock!"

Ahem. In deference to the large numbers of Goths, Pagans and similar types who frequent, and indeed to the sensibilities of at least one editor, we do not tolerate derogatory statements about Satan on this board. Consider yourself to have been given a

Yellow Card

Future anti-Satanistic "hate speech" will be deleted with extreme prejudice; persistent offending may have consequences for the long term viability of your account.

Sorry to come over so heavy-handed, but we're having a crackdown on intolerance (a "zero-intolerance policy", so to speak), and I needed someone to make an example of.

... the worst tempered and least consistent of the editors
... now also Legal department and general counsel,

Umm... (none / 0) (#2)
by ucblockhead on Mon Sep 17th, 2001 at 03:13:09 PM PST
I suspect that practicing Satanists would not consider the phrase "Suck Satan's Cock!" hate speech....

Sacred Cow? (none / 0) (#3)
by Anonymous Reader on Tue Sep 18th, 2001 at 02:40:44 AM PST
Thats funny...I thought the comment was an innocent allusion to Bill Hicks' philosophy on selling out.
Offending goths' sensibilities never crossed my mind. As a member of the goth scene, I had never thought them so enervated. Actually, I find the stigma of the hypersensitive goth more insulting than the comment to which it was attributed.

Then again...everyone has a jihad. And the martyring or crucifying of one for this "offense" was wryly amusing.



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